Perpetuity
When you see yourself reflected in the same place, in the same position, another day, other circumstances perhaps, but still your the same, unabashedly in the same place, is when you know it "has taken root."
you've been in something that has long since ceased to be concerned about yourself, about your place in the world ... at least for now.
And it is not my idea of living life fully, but I can not say that I feel "rooted" in my actions that make me unhappy. Rather, each day I feel more comfortable, wrapped by a layer invisible, in a warm halo, that perhaps others do not see.
A halo into something strange, invisible even to my deepest privacy. The continuous feeling of being ... is not a djetivo easily describe it well ... impatient. Yes, you could say that is eagerly loq ue feel now.
Impatience "Why? I preguntandomelo time. And the answer, like all transcendent answers in life, it comes with the small details. Small business unfinished. Like a ghost. That thing would easily on a moment, but unconsciously we refuse to end.
When you accumulate all these tasks in a list, and end up one by one, as if spring had come forward as if you had just awakened from a nightmare. This cycle is repeated a lot in my life lately. Obligation, guilt, redemption, purification.
Guilt. Remorse for something you have not done, perhaps by indifference. The point is that is there. Something you have not done ... never do you fear ...
From the parking, on weekends, I watch myself a month ago. I look next door and see me two years ago. When I turn vover sight to see, makes a second, almost projected my present. We all looked forward to, Touching nuestors halos, and wondering when it will break, and loneliness becomes a different definition than I have in perpetuity. Gone
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